Friday, October 1, 2010

Self Creation

I felt strange, and a little sad, today. After an energetic morning and good day at the office I decided to walk home (approximately 7.5K according to Google Maps). All the way down Yonge street cars were stuck in rush hour traffic, while I was breezing past without any rush whatsoever. It was warm and the air was crisp, it was a stunning October day.

I'm not sure if it was Neil Young's "Heart of Gold" playing on my iPod or the fact that I love this time of year so damn much, but I began to feel incredibly sentimental. My strides were strong, but my heart felt heavy. As I passed Mount Pleasant Cemetery all I could see was the leaves - burnt mustard and burgundy wine, they were overwhelming - and as soon as my iPod shuffled to Coldplay's "Lost" I suddenly felt chilled and alone. I didn't feel sad in a bad or negative way, I simply felt the need to reflect on my day, week, and past month. In doing so feelings of loneliness passed through me - a wave of emotion.

The months of both August and September were full of positive self transformation. I've been counting my blessings, big and small, one by one; but today, on my walk home, my heart filled with love and then longing. I walked all the way home, breathing deep and admiring the colours. I noticed a flower shop had pumpkins in their window display and a group of runners were already sporting their gloves and hats. In watching everything around me, I realized that I really miss walking hand-in-hand with the person closest to my heart.

En route I stopped at one of my favourite stationary stores to pick-up some new 'thank you' cards. As I leafed through the cards and embroidered paper, I gravitated toward a black card with thick white lettering. The card read as follows:

It's a myth that time heals. Time heals nothing. It's what we do with the time - the choices we make in the time, the people we surround ourselves with, the life we create and share. The love in our hearts and hope in our minds, at any time, can healcreateinspire and change almost anything..you just have to take the time to realize it. Look at yourself, and the faces of others..stop to see all the possibilities - open yourself up to this life and say, "I'm not too busy."


My eyes filled with tears and I was flooded with happiness. A rush of emotion overcame me, and I bought the card immediately. I smiled knowing that because I am so open I am able to feel, heal, create, inspire and therefore, change almost anything. I just have to realize it. I reminded myself that it's okay to feel lonely once and a while, because I am not a superhuman. 

By the time I got home my hands were chilled and I was absolutely starving, naturally. I was in the mood for something warm, hearty, and flavourful. After reading Kristen's latest blog post earlier today I was inspired to eat something "un-raw" and nourishing. After evaluating both my fridge and cupboard I decided on a big pot of vegan chili. And let me just say, it really really hit the spot.

Warm Autumn Vegan Chili

Adapted from Angela's delicious vegan chili
Ingredients:
  • 1 red bell pepper, chopped
  • 1.5 cup fresh mushrooms
  • 1 cup carrots
  • 1 can organic kidney beans
  • 1 can organic chick peas
  • 1 can Eden no-salt diced tomatoes w/ basil (with juice)
  • 1/2 white onion, chopped
  • 1 garlic clove, minced 
  • 2 tsp olive oil
  • 3 tsp cumin
  • 2 tsp chili powder 
  • 4 tsp ground pepper
  • 2 tsp oregano 
  • 2 tsp lime 
  • Angela's secret ingredient... 2 tsp chia seeds !!!! 
Directions:

In a large pot add olive oil, garlic, onion and red pepper; stir until soft. Then mix in carrots, beans, diced tomatoes, and chia seeds! Finally, add all the seasoning, stir, and simmer for 30-45 minutes (the longer the better). For garnish add a sprig or two of cilantro. Simple, no?


This warm and hearty chili was to die for. To improve this dish for next time I'll ensure to chop the carrots (as opposed to using shredded carrots..duh, Jess) and add more mushrooms (they shrink so tiny!) as well as a little more garlic and cumin. I love cumin, a lot. Cumin is known for digestive disorders as well as its antiseptic properties. All in all, what an amazing feel-good dish. 


After cleaning up the kitchen and talking to the one I both love and miss so much, I curled up in bed with a big warm blanket and pillows galore. I'm about to watch The Family Stone with Sarah Jessica Parker and Rachel McAdams. Fingers crossed that it's good!


Nighty night <3
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It's a myth that time heals. Time heals nothing. It's what we do with the time - the choices we make in the time, the people we surround ourselves with, the life we create and share. The love in our hearts and hope in our minds, at any time, can healcreateinspire and change almost anything..you just have to take the time to realize it. Look at yourself, and the faces of others..stop to see all the possibilities - open yourself up to this life and say, "I'm not too busy."
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UPDATE - The vegan chili is amazing cold (I had some for lunch today) and The Family Stone was not a good movie.

2 comments:

  1. This is a lovely post. Neil Young always gets me. I'm glad you wrote "I'm not too busy" because its so easy to forget that.

    I'm glad you read my blog post, it was a delightful surprise to see when doing my regular check on forever addicting.

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  2. Thanks, Kristen. I always enjoy your positive and supportive comments!

    Thank you for inspiring me to stay warm and nourish my body with more warming foods :)

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